I have fallen shamefully behind in my blogging and in my intentions stated as the reason for starting my blog. Quite simply, the start of fall and school (for all 3 of us!) has been overwhelming. I feel guilty for not juicing as much as I should and eating junk food due to lack of time. I paying the consequences as well. My blood pressure skyrocketed and the doc put me on beta-blockers and anti-anxiety meds. My normally sweet-natured and "fun kid" daughter has turned into a prepubescent snot. I have not been to yoga in weeks. And I feel like shit.
TOMORROW: I return to juicing. No more salty snacking and excess alcohol. I also NEED to get my butt to the yoga studio....at least twice a week. I would love to promise myself 3 or 4 times, but setting goals and failing is bad for the psyche. Two times a week, I can honestly, realistically fanangle. Caroline is done with the play that took over her's and my life the first 6 weeks of school. Her volleyball league had their fall tournament today.....No more practices across town from 5-7pm on Monday eve; no more Friday night games. I am sooooo relieved that we will both inherit some of our time back that we've willingly sacrificed each week since August 28th.
I'm done. I'm tired. As much as I was ready for school to start I am already looking forward to next summer. I watered what remains of my once thriving backyard and I feel like my calladiums look: spent; in need of hydration and relief from the heat. I look wilted, feel wilted and need to strive to regain my energy....I need the nutrients of my green juice. I know what I need and how to do it.....now I just need to do it. And I will. Tomorrow. For sure.
Tonite, I need a glass of wine.
